Hey y’all! I’ve been going through a lot of changes lately and questioning where I’m going in life so let’s talk about reinventing oneself when the old life doesn’t work anymore. I went to school at the University of Colorado in Boulder about 100 years ago (it seems). I went to the art school and I wanted to be an artist. But, listening to the world at large, I emphasized in electronic media (such as it was in the early 90’s) because I thought it would be more practical to find a job.
When I graduated I was at a loss as to what to do with my degree so I applied to all the TV stations in town. I got a job at the local Spanish station running shows and commercials. I worked there for 3 years. Then I quit and made the mistake of continuing in TV, even though I didn’t like the job or the kind of people in TV. I applied to one of the BIG TV stations in Denver and got the job there. I worked there for 18 years and most of it sucked. I was always trying to get out of there but the trapped feeling and the need to pay the bills kept me there. I was miserable. 6 newscasts a day with the same repetitive negative stories kept me depressed and colored my world view in a terrible way. I was depressed about my situation.
I’m a bipolar person and a regular job never suited me though I did well enough at it. I was depressed, angry, and trapped. For SO LONG. I decided in 2014 that I wanted to work from home on my own business. But I still remained trapped in TV News for 4 more years. Then the Universe stepped in. I was offered a buyout to leave at the end of 2018. I received 8 months of pay after leaving. I felt annoyed that I gave 18 years of my life, my youth essentially, only to be shown the door like I was nothing. But mostly, I wanted out, so I was thrilled.
Then I felt rootless and unmotivated for a long time. My partner and I got kicked of our place because we didn’t find a job until it was too late. The truth was , I didn’t want to go back. But I did, for 5 months. Then right before Covid, I was let go. My partner had, and still has, a job. So that helped. We had also received custody of my stepdaughter at the end of 2019 and then Covid changed all our lives. Suddenly we had a child full time and because of Covid, she was doing remote learning at home. Someone had to be home and yes, it was me!
i’m currently navigating the work at home world. I have a few businesses I’ve started that need to get more traction but I’m getting there. Mostly I’m focusing on tarot readings, knitting products, and writing. My dream is coming true and finally I’m happy.
The best advice I have for you is to not stay anywhere you are unhappy. Branch out and think about what you love to do and try to make a career out of it. Trust yourself. It’s okay to reinvent yourself, even if it’s at midlife like me. Life is short, trust me. It passes in the blink of an eye. As John Lennon said : “Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.” Be happy. Be authentic. Don’t be miserable for a paycheck. There are other ways.
Happy reinvention. Best of luck from me to you!